sometimes

this feeling

this passion
and desire
is so strong that

it bursts out of me

through tears
and shivers

as if the vessel which contains it
isn't strong enough

sometimes
i feel like i don't have enough
that i'm not enough
to hold this
to properly wield this sword

sometimes i feel like a child
nervously taming a wild stallion
whom he wants so badly
to be his

and sometimes
i feel like a child
who's happiness
turns into
uncontrollable rapture

it's all of this all at once

i can't even...
it's hard for me to explain