I wanna write.  I really do.  I wish more things were on here.  and more things with meaning.  i just don't have it. i have all the things i wanna write in my head.  stories.  prose.  but i respect you, and i don't want you to see my thoughts in gibberish.  i wish i could be faster and better at articulating my ideas so that i can put them in this blog quickstyle and with conscientiousness. but i just don't have it.  i don't have the goods.  i'm sorry.

a little stressed

feeling a little stressed right now.  last night, my art gallery just implemented a new daily rental rate for the studio.  since i'm the one who posed the idea, i have to carry it out now.  that means putting the literature together for the liability contract and the publicity.  i also have to do an art project with hailey's class tomorrow.  i know it for 6 year old kids, but i still want to make sure i do well and don't bomb it.  then there's game 1 of the nba finals with my favorite team the golden state warriors.  that's gonna be tonight.  man, i'm stressed.  i gotta calm down.  oh!  and shoot!  i have an art reception on tomorrow night too!  i was invited, last minute, to a group show at oakland's art murmur: http://oaklandartmurmur.org/

man, stressed.

Warrior Faithful

Warriors are going to the Finals again!  I never thought I would see it happen once.  But they actually did it twice!  Man, I'm happy.

still in it

Dubs win!  They are still in the hunt for the Championship!

Just Not in the Cards

Today is a must win for the Golden State Warriors.  If they lose tonight, they are out of the playoffs.  I wanted to be at the game but I couldn't spend that much money on tickets.  This year is my 10 year anniversary, so I have to be a bit frugal so that i could use the funds for our vacations.

So a co-worker told me she knew someone who had good tickets to the game for a good price.  She described where they were and i trusted that she knew what she was saying.  I texted the guy and told him i was interested.  then he told me the exact location of the seats.  these seat were nosebleeds!

So the price wasn't that good at all.  I was disappointed.  I told him that i was under the impression that they were better seats.  so i managed to get him to lower the price to 25% lower.  Done deal.  I transferred the money to him and went to the gym to workout. 

While at the gym, my buddy texts me and asked if i already got tix.  i said "yes".  and he said "oh man i was gonna give you mine."

I got disappointed again.  but it was cool, i still had tix to the game.

then i got a text from the guy who sold me the tix saying that he had sold them to someone else!  W. T. F.!

now, i'm stuck without a ticket when i coulda gone for free.

That's just wack

hello
how are you
i believe it's been a while

since we said farewell
there's lots to tell
since then

i was languishing
in sorrow
feeling like
i was on borrowed time

ready to say so long
at any moment

but it's been good
i've been well
and she's loving me like the way i want to be loved

don't worry
i still have my memories
as distant as they seem
i still remember
how you and i loved

it's funny
how things end
and how they look in hindsight
like an old episode
of an old dramatic show
as if it's someone else's life
but i know
i feel
that you were there for me once
you were my champion
and everything
and losing you was like losing my world

but it's been good
i've been well
and she's loving me like the way i want to be loved
and she is everything to me
the one i was made for
and i believe
she was made for me

oh i hope you are happy for me
like i'm happy for you

we were each other's only one
afterall

the one we called
when we needed love

heaven knows how much pain i felt
when i couldn't call you no more

but it's been good
i've been well
and she's loving me like the way i want to be loved
and she is everything to me
the one i was made for
and i believe
she was made for me

but i still remember

A Poem of Love from a 40 something Man to his Physical Therapist Assistant Wife

oh these days
of my early old age
i’m afraid my bones are getting brittle

my mind is getting little
my muscles are sore
and i still have much to achieve

but as my eyes get blurry
and my sharpness dull
i clearly understand
my renewed and vibrant heart

as one thing ends
another starts

at my early old age i now know
that i don’t understand much at all
but one thing i know for sure

is that my heart
feels stronger than it has ever been before

i shall heal my aches
and cure my pains
and build a longer life with you

because one thing i know for sure

is that my love for you will endure
it is stronger than it has ever been before