The more I explore
the more I notice that many current artists
are no longer confining themselves into
one subject matter or one genre

this makes me feel a little better for not
trying to box myself into one type of painting

i guess i'm still trying to come to terms with
being a multi-genre painter
who wants to paint everything that moves him

i must really still be a young buck
in this world of art
if i still haven't found my artistic self

what if i really just set myself free?

well these interdisciplinary artists
and multigenre painters
sure are giving me permission to do that

so i'm a little bit more sure about what i'm doing

but i just wonder how i can present myself to the world
the art writers
the gallery owners

i mean in order for me to do what i do
i still need funding and recognition

i need the buy in of writers and galleries

how can i package myself for them
so that they understand where i am coming from
and they can help me continue
creating my art?

The more I explore
the more I notice that many current artists
are no longer confining themselves into
one subject matter or one genre

this makes me feel a little better for not
trying to box myself into one type of painting

i guess i'm still trying to come to terms with
being a multi-genre painter
who wants to paint everything that moves him

i must really still be a young buck
in this world of art
if i still haven't found my artistic self

what if i really just set myself free?

well these interdisciplinary artists
and multigenre painters
sure are giving me permission to do that

so i'm a little bit more sure about what i'm doing

but i just wonder how i can present myself to the world
the art writers
the gallery owners

i mean in order for me to do what i do
i still need funding and recognition

i need the buy in of writers and galleries

how can i package myself for them
so that they understand where i am coming from
and they can help me continue
creating my art?

man, i hate being inspired to paint
while i'm at my dayjob

it's like a lone race horse
stuck in it's cage
while all the others
are on the track
letting their energy
go free

things are moving along

i'm working on a few commissions
stemming from my
last show "Approaching Still Life"
which I had with fellow Fourth Street Studio artists Chung Ae and Anne Lourie

the one that i'm working on right now
is a little challenging
but alot of fun

i can't really say what it is cause it's a suprise
but all i can say is that
this toy
that i'm painting
is like one of the coolest toys
i played with
when i was a kid
and i'm so happy to be painting it

also, i have a small idea for the harmony series
i think it's gonna be pretty cool
i just have to find someone who can stretch the canvases for me

so yeah, things are moving along
slow and steady

i need to put the racecar in a higher gear though
times a waistin
and i gotta put a good body of work together soon!

i think, once i'm done with my commissions
i'll start on some harmony paintings and a few portraits

ok. a bitty, a bitty.
that's all for now folks.

so i had a meeting with my critique group
about this funny idea of mine
about how i am my own work of art

i guess they all agreed
yes we can all be our own work of art

but they ask "how can you pull that off?"
"how would the exhibit look like?"

yeah i kinda wonder that too

it seems really self centered to me
but the way i see it is this

i will have a website
which shows the different things that i do
which are also traditionally viewed as creative

such as writing, music, photography and painting

i guess that's the beginning

then the exhibitions will show all these things together

the more i think about this, the more i realize that
this really isn't a new thing

i mean, MySpace shows alot of people who shows
people's various talents and such

but in a more professional level
you have famous artists being publicly creative in a variety of ways
Tony Bennet isn't only an actor, singer and showman but also a painter
Andy Warhol didn't just paint, but he did video and photography as well
JLo is a dancer, actress and a singer
oh and she's also a designer

you have to admit JLo did it and is doing it.

I recently discovered the title to these types of artists
they are called interdisciplinary artists
yeah

so i don't think i'm doing anything new
but i think i want to evolve from only being a painter
to an artist
an interdisciplinary artist

one that uses a variety of tools and genres to
exhibit one's creativity

yeah that's kinda tough
specially since my time is so limited

but we'll give it a shot

well
it may never happen
i might not be able to build the website that i want to build
who knows if i can actually evenly evolve all forms of my creativity
into something exhibitable

but we'll keep the goal in mind

i wonder if i am my own work of art?

maybe this is why it's been such a struggle for me
to paint only one kind of painting. I have painted flowers, landscapes, portraits, still lifes, abstract. I have also managed to make everything i encounter as a work of art, such as my home, my wardrobe and quite recently my wedding.

what if i'm not meant to show my paintings as the actual work of art, but actually
show them as windows to my real work of art which is myself?

as i further ponder this idea, i begin to understand that each person is their own work of art. no one understands this as well as the artist, who's high self awareness helps them create works of self expression. many successful artists that i have encountered or studied show a self awareness that is out of the ordinary. i have come to understand that every artist's life's work is themselves. i feel the need to even go further as to say that every person's life is their own work of art. they may not conciously be aware of it, but with every encountered circumstance, they are making choices that are like a brush on a canvas... a chisel on marble.

so i question myself:
if my work of art is myself
just like everyone's being is their own work of art...
then what is so special about me?

then i tend to answer:
much like Andy Warhol presented his ordinary Brillo Boxes as works of art, i present myself.

however, imagine walls surrounding this exhibit and the walls are dotted with small windows that show only fragments of what is really there...

what if my paintings are those windows? and, through each window, one sees a small part of my whole being?

have i finally gone crazy? or is this my feable attempt to b.s. the artworld into celebrating me for who i am?

I really can't see myself doing only one kind of art. because i fear that it would be dishonest. what is art afterall but honesty?

just as i published my last post
i started finding examples of successful artists
who are different types of art
in different types of ways...

there may be hope for me yet...

oh man, i hope i'm going down the right path.

i want to paint everything
and in everyway

but i have learned that it's incredibly difficult to be great or greatly known for many things...

atleast not in the artworld

i guess you're supposed to focus into one style
subject matter
or concept

focusing in more that one thing means you're still exploring
and there is a lack of strength or conviction
in your craft

but my conviction is that an artist is an artist
whatever tools or subject you give an artist
the artist will create

i am struggling
to change my outward conviction
so that i and my work will get noticed

i do admit that i am in this game to be well regarded

but my inner conviction remains

i want to paint everything
and in everyway

how do i achieve my goal of critical aclaim and still stay true to my inner conviction?

can i, or should i even try?