Tuesday, April 29, 2003 :::

the letter below was written on September 12, 2000.

09/12/00
A LETTER to AN OLD FRIEND

we were friends once
walked side by side
when i was younger

our conversations
strengthened me
and made me

imagine

imagine things
that hardly traveled through anyone else's mind

we were inseparable

i hardly see you now
and when i do
you are a shock of electricity
that envigorates me for a short moment
then leaves me

lifeless

wondering
when you will return

how did i loose you?
how did i find my self without you

did knowledge
and wisdom

drive you away?

i need to know
i need to know why
i need to know how i can get you back

because i need you

i miss you

i miss you creativity.

.........................................

Almost three years later, my old friend is by my side again.

|cool|

love at first sight

it seems that people
do not believe in it anymore

but what's to believe?

it doesn't matter if you believe in joy or not
you still feel it.

it doesn't matter if you believe in pain or not
you still feel it.

it doesn't matter if you believe in love or not
you still feel it.

no matter how it happens or why or

when

even if it is at first site

you just feel it

Last night i went to the Asian Art Museum After Hours event.

this place was beautiful. and the event was beautiful. and the guests were beautiful. they were mostly the YAPPIE types (Young Asian Professionals), with a few other YUPPIES (Young Urban Professionals) sprinkled around. so yes everyone was nicely dressed and nicely groomed, ready to look and to be looked at.

the exhibits were nice although i have one criticism. if it only shows Ancient Asian Art, shouldn't it be called the Ancient Asian Art Museum? I have a small problem with how they are portraying asian art to the general public. i mean if i were a tourist coming into San Francisco and i came to visit the Asian Art Museum. If all i see is ancient asian art, i would say to myself "hmm. so i guess modern/contemporary asian artists don't exist huh?"

yeah as a modern asian artist myself, looking for asian artist role models is hard enough. it's even harder when my museum tells the world that there aren't any modern asian artists around. basically telling the world that people like me do not exist.

and! i heard the only had two pieces from the Philippines. man, i feel like rodney dangerfield.

but for $20, i got admission to the museum, a nice dinner, and unlimited drinks. they hooked me up. so i'll shut up now.

I can't wait for the summer movie season...

X-Men 2
Matrix 2
The Hulk
Charlie's Angels

Action Sequences, Special Effects, Ammo, Kung Fu, Hot Sexy Girls... holy crap!

when ever i write my formal e-mails, i end it with this:

Best,
Michael Sacramento

I wanted something simple, original but not T.T.H. (trying too hard. yes, that's my own original abbreviation too). So "Best," i thought was cool.

gradually, i started noticing that more and more people are using "Best,". my boss started using it. and other faculty, administrator and students started using it. now, i'm getting all these e-mails from everywhere that end with "Best,".

What's up with that?

Anyway, it didn't bug me at first cause i thought "wow, they like "Best," so much that they started using it as their own", but now it's kinda getting to me. I like it when no one else has what I've got. And I don't mind it when I find someone who has it too as It creates an instant connection. But when I got something else that everyone else has? man, i don't know...

I guess I just don't like "uniforms".

not unless it's a private school girl uniform ofcourse (not on me!).

Maybe i'll just find a new way to end my e-mails.

love,
miguel

a musical conversation:
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my AIM screen name is Alizarin1

Toughguy Inc: howdy
alizarin1: hey sid!
Toughguy Inc: bad time?
alizarin1: no it's cool. whats up?
Toughguy Inc: just saying hello
Toughguy Inc: wondering what you thought of the 3 tracks i posted the other day
alizarin1: dude they were cool
Toughguy Inc: thanks man =)
alizarin1: when i get the chance, can i write a melody and lyrics for the second one?
alizarin1: sunday drive i think
Toughguy Inc: the mellow - cure type of song?
alizarin1: yeah dude
alizarin1: that one's tight
Toughguy Inc: yeah sure go ahead..i have no lyrics yet
Toughguy Inc: thanks
alizarin1: right up my alley
Toughguy Inc: hehe
alizarin1: hey sid. have you heard of |Jonny Lang|?

Toughguy Inc: a lot of my stuff lately has been like the 3rd one welcome home... but it's just one of many styles i play around with
Toughguy Inc: yeah man the kid is blues prodigy
Toughguy Inc: have his 1st album
alizarin1: yeah. dude's got a voice on him
Toughguy Inc: yeah he sounds like a 40 year old black man who's been around the block a few times
Toughguy Inc: he's an amazing guitarist
alizarin1: i know. lol. hella funny
alizarin1: seems like it. bb king like
alizarin1: second cd's more rock and roll/a spice of pop
Toughguy Inc: vocally? bb king
Toughguy Inc: guitar: albert king
alizarin1: hmmm. yeah. that too
alizarin1: haha
Toughguy Inc: i heard stuff off the 2nd album i dug it..need to pick it up
Toughguy Inc: you know albert king?
alizarin1: blues guitarist?
Toughguy Inc: there are 3 kings of blues
Toughguy Inc: freddy king
Toughguy Inc: albert king
Toughguy Inc: and bb
alizarin1: damn.. knowledge.
Toughguy Inc: albert king fucking rocks..if you need to hear a good sample song..find Born Under a Bad Sign
alizarin1: i gotta keep that in mind
Toughguy Inc: classic
alizarin1: ok
Toughguy Inc: yeah lot of people cover that song too cause the riffs and lyrics are just plain bad ass
Toughguy Inc: cream, hendrix , etc etc
alizarin1: cool
Toughguy Inc: now i will digress...
alizarin1: dude. did you know there was a hendrix movie out?
Toughguy Inc: there was? what?!
alizarin1: with vivica fox
Toughguy Inc: whoa i like her
Toughguy Inc: who played jimi?
alizarin1: i just found out today while looking through some films
alizarin1: hang on
Toughguy Inc: k
alizarin1: http://movies.yahoo.com/shop?d=hv&id=1804463705&cf=info&intl=us
Toughguy Inc: billy zane is in this? LOL
alizarin1: haha. yeah
Toughguy Inc: whoa bad reviews from hendrix devotees
alizarin1: yeah i know
Toughguy Inc: dunno if i can watch it lol
alizarin1: haha
alizarin1: i know i don't watch too many art movies either
alizarin1: movies about artists i mean
Toughguy Inc: understood
Toughguy Inc: i think i'd be hypercritical too...i've read 4 or 5 different biographies on jimi....
alizarin1: i know you're a fan
Toughguy Inc: disciple
Toughguy Inc: lol
Toughguy Inc: i'm way too obsessed to be a fan
alizarin1: haha
alizarin1: well you have to watch the movie then
Toughguy Inc: dunno...lol
Toughguy Inc: if it's bad it would just upset me
alizarin1: you'll have to bear through it
Toughguy Inc: lol
alizarin1: haha
alizarin1: anyway man. i gotta get back to work. can i catch you later?
Toughguy Inc: yeah dude i'll be here
alizarin1: cool. lates!
Toughguy Inc: cya
alizarin1: hey sid
Toughguy Inc: yo
alizarin1: i'm gonna put this up on my journal is that cool?
alizarin1: a conversation about art and music
Toughguy Inc: rofl
Toughguy Inc: sure

On April Fools Day:
my toilet exploded.

my two roommates (g and knips) and i looked at our downstairs bathroom in amazement. the ground was soaking wet with a mixture of toilet water and... ahem.. you know. used, wet toilet paper was scattered on the floor and the carpet outside the bathroom. little brown chunks (you know what those are) were sprinkled through out.

a couple of thoughts came to me when this happened:
1) "i don't want to start any blasphemous rumors but i think that God's got a sick sense of humor" - depeche mode
2) i'm glad that my closest friends are my roommates. if i were living by myself and all that stuff happened, i would have been really pissed off. instead i was laughing my ass off all night while we joked about who's chunks were on the floor.

I'm thinking about reading this book:
|on beauty and being just|