sometimes

this feeling

this passion
and desire
is so strong that

it bursts out of me

through tears
and shivers

as if the vessel which contains it
isn't strong enough

sometimes
i feel like i don't have enough
that i'm not enough
to hold this
to properly wield this sword

sometimes i feel like a child
nervously taming a wild stallion
whom he wants so badly
to be his

and sometimes
i feel like a child
who's happiness
turns into
uncontrollable rapture

it's all of this all at once

i can't even...
it's hard for me to explain

i feel, i’m being challenged

i saw a painting in the art gym today
it was a beautiful painting
of a girl in a kimono

this creation
shows so much
skill

the way the colors were used
they way the paint was
applied

the way the image
of the girl
fit
inside the canvas

i feel i’m being challenged

this is the first time
in my life in the studio
where i’m sure
someone is better than me

she is better than me

but my challenge is not
to show Her
and everyone
that I am better

the challenge
is to find peace
with the truth that
there is a bigger fish
in my little pond

and that
this Is my chance
to learn
from the bigger fish

so that I can grow
and swim into
a bigger pond

on love
/a song/
/shelter/


i know
i understand your pain
it’s so hard
for happiness to sustain
and nothing’s ever the same
but maybe together
we can wait for things to change

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

(silence)

ofcourse you know
that things they happen for a reason
and you know
bad things they pass

so if we get through
this never ending storm
then maybe it won't be
neverending at all

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

(instrumental)

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

that we're meant to be

yeah, we're meant to be

on love
/a song/
/shelter/

i know
i understand your pain
it’s so hard
for happiness to sustain
and nothing’s ever the same
but maybe together
we can wait for things to change
to get better

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

(silence)

ofcourse you know
that things they happen for a reason
and you know
bad things they pass

so if we get through
this never ending storm
then maybe it won't be
neverending at all

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

(instrumental)

Chorus
so won't you seek shelter with me
we can find ourselves a temporary home
where we can both feel
rested and free
from our trials and troubles
then maybe we'll see

that we're
meant to be

that we're meant to be

yeah, we're meant to be

today i sent this to the amazing START SOMA ( http://www.startsoma.com/ ) :

Dear StartSOMA,
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to show you my
artwork.

I am a filipino artist living in the bay area. My
work represents my attempts at creating inviting
images with the conceptual use of color combinations,
textures and the the human figure.

My major influences have been contemporary filipino
and asian art, the bay area figureative painters,
films, and comic books.

The goal of my work is to somehow provide a bridge
between different types of genres. Particularly
between the genres of representational and abstract as
well as between contemporary asian and modern american
art.

By successfully fulfilling this goal, I hope to find
through my journey, an overall success of critical
acclaim and recognition. So that more doors will be
opened to individuals with the same song to sing.

Please visit my online gallery:
http://www.geocities.com/alizarin1/

Please view the attached samples of my art. I would
be more than happy to show you my original artwork if
you feel inclined to see them.

All the best on your success,
Michael Sacramento

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SOOOOOOOOOOOO....
i've been procrastinating in creating an artist statement
but in writing this e-mail
i think i just created an artist statement!

isn't that just awsome?

anyway
wish me luck on being accepted as a featured artist

I absolutely can not wait until this movie comes out:

Once Upon a Time in Mexico

Looks awsome.

friendship
/a response to Alec/

someone signed my guestbook the other day:

Name: Alec Matusis
E-mail address: matusis@matusis.com
Comments: Hi I did a search in Google on
"I miss friendship", because I feel that way, and found your website.
I think you are talented.
I wonder if it is common, to miss friendship...
Or to feel friendship. Or to feel in general...
Thursday, July 10th 2003 - 02:55:33 AM

Alec,
I do think it's common to miss friendship. not everyone has that special friend all the time. it sucks when you have this need to belong and there is really no one's company to belong to. I hope you find the friendship that you miss someday. it's a very warm comforting feeling when you are around someone and you don't have to try so hard to be good company. i think it's great that you miss friendship though. because that means you once had it. there are people who have never had the kind of friendship that we are talking about. i wish you the best.

http://www.geocities.com/alizarin1/words54.html

should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

or should i paint?

or should i work out?

yeah, i can't make up my mind.
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