I need to sort out my head really bad

maybe i'll never get there
maybe i drive too slow
take the scenic route
and many detours
but i'll keep moving towards that direction

My heroes aren't those who are the greatest at what they do. My heroes are those who overcome weaknesses to become great.

engine's revvin
ready to go

just gotta get some more gas
and some chips
for the road
maybe a bottled water

who knows how bumpy this ride will be

i hope i can still join the race

yo hey. i'm here. just checkin how you're doin.
and i'm also checkin in
to let you know that i'm doin fine.

a few things have changed
i met some goals
and created new ones

i found love and had a kid

i've put art in the back burner for a few months

but now i'm itchin
i'm really itchin
to conquer the world

i mean not to be the next picasso
who conquered the whole world

but i just want to conquer "a" world

i want to get some new accomplishments
create some "more beautiful work"

what i mean is i think i have better goods now
to create better pieces

i just hope that the world hasn't left me behind
i am so fearing that

that i'm being left behind
i have these friends you know?
these art friends who have these big engines
and more time than i do
and they are just achieving man
just pulling shit out here and there and getting recognized
exhibited
selling

they are selling man...

i've dried up...

have i dried up?
i don't know. i think i have more goods
to make better stuff

but am i done?
is the world done with me?

that's the insecurity i guess
one way to find out i guess

getting my butt in gear means:
applying for grants and shows
painting some kick ass work

hmm. that's it really. i can do that can't i?

ok. here i go.