yo hey. i'm here. just checkin how you're doin.
and i'm also checkin in
to let you know that i'm doin fine.

a few things have changed
i met some goals
and created new ones

i found love and had a kid

i've put art in the back burner for a few months

but now i'm itchin
i'm really itchin
to conquer the world

i mean not to be the next picasso
who conquered the whole world

but i just want to conquer "a" world

i want to get some new accomplishments
create some "more beautiful work"

what i mean is i think i have better goods now
to create better pieces

i just hope that the world hasn't left me behind
i am so fearing that

that i'm being left behind
i have these friends you know?
these art friends who have these big engines
and more time than i do
and they are just achieving man
just pulling shit out here and there and getting recognized
exhibited
selling

they are selling man...

i've dried up...

have i dried up?
i don't know. i think i have more goods
to make better stuff

but am i done?
is the world done with me?

that's the insecurity i guess
one way to find out i guess

getting my butt in gear means:
applying for grants and shows
painting some kick ass work

hmm. that's it really. i can do that can't i?

ok. here i go.